Journal: My second meeting with Goddess: Hecate

This happened to me about two years ago. I was close to finishing nursing school, and was preparing to start my new job as a nurse on a busy mother/baby unit.
I was into day 3 of killer headache. I got home from class around 3 and slept on the couch til about 6, waking up now and then a bit. T
he window behind the couch was open and the wind was beautiful. It smelled like early summer and cut grass. Just absolutely wonderful and reminding me of when I was little etc. I was drifing in it and I felt a presence. I opened up the psychic channels, trying to hear what was said.
I got a female presence, stating the I AM principle which is how God describes Himself too.
She said Goddess is another aspect of God. If God is everything then He is Female as well as Male. I started thinking about how the Bible said Man is in the image of God and how the patriarchal societies would then of course assign God a male sex.
She was a strong energy, fierce, proud. She was telling me she is in all things natural, all things nature, the wind the rain, the air and the wonderful smells I was enjoying was her and I was right to be thankful. It was weird because I wasn’t scared but it wasn’t the loving feeling as when the angels are around. I got a warrior sense and the name of the goddess Hecate popped into my head. (I hadn’t heard of her before)
Her message to me was that God is everything, both sides, the yin and the yang, the dark and the light because God’s own description of self is I AM.
I wasn’t scared but I felt kind of…something hard to describe. You know how they say that people were frightened in the face of God? I was thinking then I wasn’t frightened, I wasn’t in danger, or threatened in any way, but it was stong female power around me in that sweet-scented air.
Also at some point there was snake and a priest. Preist saying Hecate is evil, I put white light, she was still there. She gave me images: a three headed snake coming thru the window was the most poignant. She laughed at the priest, as she was older than he and knew the truth.
When the vision left me, I went outside to sit on my front step and meditate on it. I noticed that the fresh blooms on my datura plants had all disappeared. It looked like they had been cut off.

Now I knew next to nothing about this goddess, so of course I looked her up. How interesting to find that she is known to have three aspects as guardian of the crossroads. The three headed snake fit well. Hecate has a reputation (rightly or wrongly, depends who you ask) of being a ‘dark’ goddess, associated with death and the otherworld, and I have seen her in all aspects but generally crone. She made herself known to me in a strong sense of energy. Kuan Yin, who was my first meeting with Goddess and who came during my reiki attunements, had always given me a light, pink/purple and white light, a gentle comfort. Hecate came on the wind, with strength and bold colors. And she left with the heads of my datura flowers, to remind me of her power and I think to show her approval. Datura are very poisonous plants, and thus sacred to the darker side of light.
I am sure that I grow some every year, to give thanks to this Goddess for bringing me her message.

My Reiki attunements

I have been a level III Reiki Master for 4 years now. Although I don’t formally teach or attune others at this point, someday I will. My first attunement will be that of my daughter, who at 14 is still too young to take the responsibility. She resonates with the energy though and I think she has the same inborn psychic talent that I have and my grandmother had before me.

Anyway, my attunements were done by distance, which is completely valid because energy is not affected by time or space. It simply is. They were all done my good friend who is a Reiki Master/Teacher. Between the first and second attunements, I made the decision to enter nursing school.

During my first attunement, I was given the vision of eyes. I was floating somewhere in space, and the eyes were looking at me. I was being asked if I would take the responsibility of being a Healer for life. I felt I was being judged and deemed worthy. Then the weirdest thing happened. A little man climbed a ladder up my face and nailed the first reiki symbol onto my forehead!

After the attunement, I was sleepy/giddy. I went thru the 21 day cleansing period, with mood swings, nausea, lack of appetite and mood swings. After the 3 weeks though, or a little before that time was up, I began to feel more balanced. I defintely knew that I’d been given great responsibility for healing, and that I’d committed to it for life.

My reiki II attunement was approximately a year after. That one was much more intense in terms of the visuals. I had gotten images all day before the attunement of doors opening and had a huge compulsion to hang my amethest pendant across my forehead where my third eye is. (the same place the first symbol was nailed to my forehead!) During the attunement, I was told by a goddess that it was the reawakening of my 7th self, and the color purple was very prominent. I was given a glowing ball by my guides which I then offered to the goddess who then said “You will hold many, you will heal many” and a finger tapped my amethyst stone into my forehead (again, the chakra.)  I was reminded of my past life as a pre-christian priestess of the goddess, and of the blue moon/star I wore on my forehead at that time. I felt the desire to draw more energy, and almost did, but out of respect for the Lady I did not.

After the attunement, my friend told me that he nearly gave me the level III symbols but stopped. He said he felt me ready and that I was almost pulling it from him. This was before I’d told him about my experience. The time period after the level two attunement was one of joy. I was able to direct the energy much better and focused more on others, of giving and sending reiki via distance.

It was only a short few months later that I recieved my level III attunement. This one as well, included many visions. I was reminded again of my responsibility as an attuned healer, and I took that responsibility to heart. I was given my spirit animals (tiger and crow) and I was given an image of the goddess Kuan Yin, who conferred to me my level III symbols in flashes of white light.

After the attunement, I asked my friend what visuals he used. He told me that he used white lights and that his patron goddess was Kuan Yin. Again, before I’d told him anything of my experience he told me this.

The best and most fun parts of the time periods after the attunements are when the chakras start activating in my hands. I enjoyed the random times that the heat would resonate, and I enjoyed touching people and showing them the heat. There was a sense of spinning in my hand chakras very often, and when I laid my hands on my daughter she would sense it and tell me my hands were vibrating. Over time, I began to be able to control it, and now my hands get hot only when I tell them too. My chakras continue to spin.

That is the tale of my attunement. I welcome you to share your story.